Saying goodbye... for now.

I’m taking an addictions class this semester and one of our assignments is, for three weeks, we have to give up something we’re either addicted to or that has become an everyday habit.

I don’t drink coffee or soda very often. I really try not to drink caffeine at all, actually. So, that’s out.

I don’t drink enough booze that giving it up for three weeks would really be that egregious.

I don’t see my boyfriend enough to give up sex (plus, that would just be mean).

I don’t do drugs or smoke.

I don’t eat enough fast food where I’d really miss it if I gave it up.

So, I racked my brain over what I could give up which would make a marked difference in my day to day life and was very proud when I realized I don’t have a ton of “addictions” or habits.

I guess I could give up organizing and cleaning things for three weeks? Eh.

Or maybe I could give up picking my cuticles, which is a disgusting habit I have. Meh. I’ll try and give this up, too, but it’s not enough for the purpose of this assignment.

Orrrr….

I could finally give up facebook.

DING! DING! DING!

I’ve been looking for the motivation to do this and now I finally have it! 

So, after today, I will be facebook-free. It’s not going to be easy. I peruse facebook a LOT during the day – not even thinking that I keep clicking on it. It’s like when you keep opening your fridge to see what you have to eat and behold! There’s still nothing in there since the last time you checked 30 minutes ago. I don’t really care what people on facebook are up to; it’s a time-waster and a procrastination tool. It’s probably not healthy. It needs to go. I suspect I’ll have better study habits once I give up facebook, too.

I’m not deactivating my account. No, no, that would be making it too easy on myself and would almost completely eliminate the temptation of signing in, since reactivating may be a pain the ass and not worth the hassle. Facebook still needs to be accessible to me; I just need to resist the urge and temptation. Which, as an addict, the temptation is almost never gone and relapse is high - especially when certain substances are easily accessible. It will be much easier to “relapse” if I don’t deactivate the account and I’ll experience much more discomfort this way – which is a good thing, I think. Facebook will always be there, I just have to avoid it and learn to live without it even though it’s shoved down my throat every time I turn around.

So, after today, I will detox from facebook.